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Here's to 6. months in Remission

 Six months ago I got a double mastectomy, 6 months ago Dr. Clarke came to into the office an said "I got it all there's nothing left.'' and he walked out ... Sounds crazy right but, he's like not much of a talker but he's amazing obviously.. When the nurse read me my pathology report she said " girl it doesn't even look like you ever had CANCER.'' I cried bruh like I cried !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8 lymph nodes removes all negative for CANCER ! 6 months is crazy is because it feels like yesterday it feels I just got up off the operating table lol not really. but you know mentally lol. 


My oncologist doesn't like to say CANCER FREE because you triple negative is a whole BITCH IN A HALF !So after 5 years then I'll be declared CANCER FREE .... 


it really aint what she though lol 


REMISSION SOUND WAY BETTER THAN CANCER .....



SO I SAY IN REMISSION AT TIMES IT FEELS WEIRD BECAUSE IM STILL GET INFUSIONS FOR KEYTRUDA SO ITS LIKE IM STILL IN THAT CHEMO CHAIR EVERY 3 WEEKS IM STILL SEEING MY SAME NURSE.. ITS SO WEIRD JUST WEIRD GRATEFUL. THOUGH


I prayed over my surgeons hands .. I remember waking up and the first thing I was "did they get cancer out?" 


I wouldn't know until a week later ...


here's to 6 more months ....


then six more after that. & that & that 



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