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24 hours with my boobs

In less than 24 hours, my breast will be removed and I honestly don’t want to talk to anybody about it because I’m sad about it and I don’t really know if that’s  normal I know I’m not bugging out and I’m not tripping. I know that everything that I’m feeling is real and I want to feel it and I know that I’m making the best decision for myself and I know that I’m gonna do this because this is what I wanna do but I’m still sad and I am just, yeah I’m just sad that’s all.

After 16 rounds of chemotherapy, the day has finally arrived for my double mastectomy. As I prepare for the surgery, I can't help but feel a sense of sadness and loss. I never thought I would miss my breasts, but here I am, questioning my body image and self-worth.

"I never thought I would miss my breasts, but as I prepare for my surgery, I can't help but feel a range of emotions. I am sad, scared, and worried about the future. But at the same time, I am hopeful and determined to come out stronger."





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